Ignoring God

Have you ever ignored God? Has He ever told you something so contrary to what you have been raised to believe that you just want to flee? You fear the reaction of those around you so much and the Church you were raised in that you just remain silent. Well, I now find myself in that place. How long I will remain in this place of silence I do not know, sometimes I wonder if it really was God. I now know what it feels like to be a coward or is this self-preservation.

Amy Winehouse Punches A Fan

Well a bunch of people got fired at work today and I found out my promotion has been put on hold. This story is a few days old, but it helps me to divert my attention from my horrible day.

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/International_Buzz/Amy_Winehouse_punches_a_fan/articleshow/3180401.cms


Amy’s conduct is really bad, but she is tremendously talented. I think she may be a legend in the making; I just pray that she makes it in spite of herself.

Crazy Stuff That Happens In California

Read below to see the kind of crazy stuff that happens in California. This poor guy's arrest was all over the news and then it turns out he was framed. What kind of crazy deminted person would do something like that to someone?

From the Los Angeles Times
Police: Fullerton teacher was framed
Police say they are now investigating who set up the man by putting marijuana and a shotgun in his car at Sunny Hills High School.By H.G. RezaLos Angeles Times Staff WriterMay 30, 2008A Fullerton high school history teacher who was jailed this week when police -- acting on a tip -- found a shotgun and marijuana in his car in the school parking lot was actually the "victim of an elaborate setup," police said Thursday.Investigators are now convinced that Gregory Abbott, 31, of Placentia, who has taught at Sunny Hills High School for seven years, is innocent and was actually a victim, said Sgt. Mike MacDonald of the Fullerton Police Department.Detectives want to talk to Abbott's estranged wife and a male friend. MacDonald declined to identify the pair, calling them "persons of interest at this time" and not suspects.Abbott was pulled out of class Tuesday by officers who asked if they could search his car.An anonymous caller had phoned police to report that he had purchased drugs from a teacher at the high school named Abbott, who kept a weapon in his vehicle. The telephone call was made from off campus.MacDonald said Abbott was cooperative from the beginning and gave officers permission to search his car.They recovered an unloaded shotgun, about a gram of marijuana and prescription drugs packaged as if for sale.Abbott was arrested without incident and taken to the Fullerton City Jail, where he posted $25,000 bail.He said the gun and drugs were not his, and a follow-up investigation "revealed he was telling the truth," MacDonald said.Police said that they are still conducting a criminal investigation but that the focus is now on who framed Abbott."You could say the investigation has taken us in a different direction. We felt a duty to be impartial and fair, checking out Abbott's story," MacDonald said. "We're happy that the results vindicated him. He's had a tough week."Reached by telephone late Thursday, the teacher agreed."I'm a lot better today," he said. "I feel extremely grateful to the people who were with me through this time, especially the Fullerton police, who did an amazing and professional job by investigating to get to the truth."Abbott said he didn't blame them for arresting him, but that the ordeal seemed surreal."Nothing even close to this has ever happened to me," he said. "I come from a good family with a good background; to have the police come tell me that there's a shotgun in my car -- I can hardly believe it even now."hgreza@latimes.comTimes staff writer David Haldane contributed to this report.

I Acutally Did Something Good Today

I had my hair cut today and I actually did something good. My hairdresser’s son is gay and she told me about the time he went to church with his dad. Her son said he liked the church, but he knows the church doesn’t accept him so he wouldn’t go back. How sad is that when someone feels like a church doesn’t want him (For the most part the universal church has always made the gay community feel totally alienated-Something like the Samaritans in the New Testament). Someone could be a murderer and feel more accepted at church. We should all be ashamed of ourselves and I am included. I have supported churches like this for years simply accepting what I have been taught all my life. Anyway I told her that there are churches that will accept her son and I feel like I planted a good seed. We then went on discussing different ways to interpret the Bible and so it turned out to be a really good conversation.

My Horrible Week

I am really happy my week from hell is almost over. Some computer program (or the programmer) malfunctioned and a bunch of people didn’t get paid. I am just happy I am not the one who did this. And, actually it wasn’t a bunch of people it was like thousands. So this is what I have had to hear all week (Note I like to avoid conflict.). I empathize with them (Those that didn’t get paid), have compassion for them, but it is pretty sad when you get shorted $100 and your whole world falls apart and you have to totally freak out. So I have had to listen to this and try to get all my work done. And a lot of them need some real civility lessons and it is just incredible and scary (And they are rude even when they get paid so you can’t excuse their behavior because they are upset). THIS WHOLE THING REALLY ISN’T EVEN MY JOB ANYWAY SO THAT TICKS ME OFF TOO. I wonder what type of parents these people had or the problem is they just weren’t parented at all. Anyway I think God is trying to teach me some type of lesson what this lesson is I don’t know. Maybe He wants me to be nice to stupid people or maybe not to avoid conflict so He put me in a bunch of conflict. I try to be polite to people so I just can’t relate to some of these people who are just naturally rude. And this isn’t all just me (I thought maybe there is something wrong with me) other people say the same thing. Anyway I am afraid to go to work tomorrow. On a lighter note it was 94 degrees today and it is suppose to be 100 degrees tomorrow. The weather is really nice. So I went out for my walks during lunch and break and people were commenting how they hoped we weren’t going to have an earthquake (Whenever the weather changes drastically in California almost everyone thinks we are going to have an earthquake – there is some truth to this although scientist would say no). Because of this earthquak talk I didn’t get any peace on my walk at work either. And on a good note the California Supreme Court overturned the gay marriage ban , but I couldn’t discuss this with anyone because I didn’t want to out myself. (I purposely but that sentence towards the end because I didn't think you would have read this far.) So people asked me what I thought and I just looked at them kind of stupid this really disgusted me with myself. And then when I got home I called up my friend J and he said we were going to have hyperflation like Argentina during the 1980s and gas was going to be $10.00 a gallon so that just made me really happy. This whole week has been a drag.

China's Quake In Mid-Afternoon

Natural disasters seem to be happening more frequently around the globe (or maybe it is just my imagination) are increasingly becoming more troubling to my mind. Being from California the earthquake in China really strikes home (I can’t help but personalize the images). When hearing about the magnitude of the quake I was taken aghast (It is huge.). Having lived through much smaller quakes I can imagine the horror these poor people are going through. But, the part that really got to me is the quake happened mid-morning in California we are still blessed to have most earthquakes happen when the majority of people are asleep.

I Am Starting To Believe In Eugenics

I received a promotion at work and one of my new responsibilities is talking to sales people located all over the country on the phone. And it is frightening. Where do these people come from? I am being to think some people should not be allowed to breed (This is actually a philosophy http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eugenics). This is a real horrible thing to think, but I have actually started thinking this way. I have never been around people like this in my life. I am almost afraid to pick up the phone sometimes. So this is my confession for the day.