A lot of things have happened since I last blogged. I was really busy with work, school, and learning about this new side of me that I never knew existed. As mentioned previously I have started attending an inclusive church. This might not be a big deal for some people, but it was a major step for me. The moment I walked through those doors I was going against everything I had ever been taught. I am starting to make friends and get involved in church functions. So essentially I have to lives now: my straight life and Sundays when I get to be who I really am. This is not very healthy, I know, when I will be able to merge the two still seems very foreign to me and way in the future.
I also attended my first gay pride parade I never thought I would be at one of those; and then went to the festival afterwards. But I am still keeping these things secret from my friends and family. The parade was mellow compared to the average gay pride parade (the parade in Los Angeles can get pretty crazy), but still I don’t think these parades are representative of the average gay and lesbian.
Another eye opener was when I watched the movie Milk last weekend. What impacted me the most about this movie was this was the atmosphere I grew up in as a child (living in California); what I mean specifically is I realized I was surrounded by those who wanted to limit the rights (civil liberties) of gays and lesbians. I was brought up in churches and a family that were totally opposed to Milk (My family is very political.). It is interesting to see how my ideas were formed and realize those things engrained in me I need to overcome.
Another change is yesterday I lost my job (Due to the fact we were making no money.) so we will see what will happen with that situation. Losing the job is pretty scary, but it goes along with all the change in my life right now.