Saturday, May 17, 2008
I had my hair cut today and I actually did something good. My hairdresser’s son is gay and she told me about the time he went to church with his dad. Her son said he liked the church, but he knows the church doesn’t accept him so he wouldn’t go back. How sad is that when someone feels like a church doesn’t want him (For the most part the universal church has always made the gay community feel totally alienated-Something like the Samaritans in the New Testament). Someone could be a murderer and feel more accepted at church. We should all be ashamed of ourselves and I am included. I have supported churches like this for years simply accepting what I have been taught all my life. Anyway I told her that there are churches that will accept her son and I feel like I planted a good seed. We then went on discussing different ways to interpret the Bible and so it turned out to be a really good conversation.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I am really happy my week from hell is almost over. Some computer program (or the programmer) malfunctioned and a bunch of people didn’t get paid. I am just happy I am not the one who did this. And, actually it wasn’t a bunch of people it was like thousands. So this is what I have had to hear all week (Note I like to avoid conflict.). I empathize with them (Those that didn’t get paid), have compassion for them, but it is pretty sad when you get shorted $100 and your whole world falls apart and you have to totally freak out. So I have had to listen to this and try to get all my work done. And a lot of them need some real civility lessons and it is just incredible and scary (And they are rude even when they get paid so you can’t excuse their behavior because they are upset). THIS WHOLE THING REALLY ISN’T EVEN MY JOB ANYWAY SO THAT TICKS ME OFF TOO. I wonder what type of parents these people had or the problem is they just weren’t parented at all. Anyway I think God is trying to teach me some type of lesson what this lesson is I don’t know. Maybe He wants me to be nice to stupid people or maybe not to avoid conflict so He put me in a bunch of conflict. I try to be polite to people so I just can’t relate to some of these people who are just naturally rude. And this isn’t all just me (I thought maybe there is something wrong with me) other people say the same thing. Anyway I am afraid to go to work tomorrow. On a lighter note it was 94 degrees today and it is suppose to be 100 degrees tomorrow. The weather is really nice. So I went out for my walks during lunch and break and people were commenting how they hoped we weren’t going to have an earthquake (Whenever the weather changes drastically in California almost everyone thinks we are going to have an earthquake – there is some truth to this although scientist would say no). Because of this earthquak talk I didn’t get any peace on my walk at work either. And on a good note the California Supreme Court overturned the gay marriage ban , but I couldn’t discuss this with anyone because I didn’t want to out myself. (I purposely but that sentence towards the end because I didn't think you would have read this far.) So people asked me what I thought and I just looked at them kind of stupid this really disgusted me with myself. And then when I got home I called up my friend J and he said we were going to have hyperflation like Argentina during the 1980s and gas was going to be $10.00 a gallon so that just made me really happy. This whole week has been a drag.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Natural disasters seem to be happening more frequently around the globe (or maybe it is just my imagination) are increasingly becoming more troubling to my mind. Being from California the earthquake in China really strikes home (I can’t help but personalize the images). When hearing about the magnitude of the quake I was taken aghast (It is huge.). Having lived through much smaller quakes I can imagine the horror these poor people are going through. But, the part that really got to me is the quake happened mid-morning in California we are still blessed to have most earthquakes happen when the majority of people are asleep.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
I received a promotion at work and one of my new responsibilities is talking to sales people located all over the country on the phone. And it is frightening. Where do these people come from? I am being to think some people should not be allowed to breed (This is actually a philosophy http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eugenics). This is a real horrible thing to think, but I have actually started thinking this way. I have never been around people like this in my life. I am almost afraid to pick up the phone sometimes. So this is my confession for the day.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
I have come to the awareness that my brother is a psychopath. After experiencing the things he has done for years (actually it has been my entire life he is my older brother) it is obvious he has no conscience. A friend of mine, who is sociology major, suggested that he is probably a psychopath. At first I did not believe her, after all how could someone have no conscience. That is unreal like something out of a book. But any way, I did some research and found out my friend was most likely correct. Not that I am a psychologists or anything, but most of the information on the intranet describes him perfectly. I found an article on psychopathic behevior which perfectly fits my brother the link is http://www.cassiopaea.com/cassiopaea/psychopath.htm. I wish that I had this knowledge years ago, so that I would have realized you couldn’t deal with him like a normal human being. But, for me this is an earth-shattering discovery and explains alot of things.